At last. We’ve come to the end of this crazy Coupled adventure.
First of all…this was a two-hour long episode which made me wish all the episodes had been this long! It would’ve made such a significant difference for the show. smh
So when Terrence comes and tells us that its our final night together and that he would be taking the guys to a different location for the night so that we could all make our decisions, everyone sort of froze in place. And then to be told that the very next morning, there would be a helicopter down at the beach for each couple to either meet at and fly off together in, or, if you decided you didn’t want to remain coupled, we were instructed not to meet down at the helicopter at all. So dramatic.
Then on top of everything, we were put “on ice” (meaning we couldn’t talk) or say any last/final words to each other before the guys were separated from us ladies. We didn’t get one last chance to talk things out and make a unanimous/joint decision. Wouldn’t make for good TV if they did it that way, now would it??
Side note: If you notice, Tyler and I were super dressed up for this meeting while everyone else was in their pj’s, trunks, barefoot, no makeup etc.– that’s because we were told we were going to be able to go on another private date night. Obviously, that’s not what happened. So… that was awkward. But what better way to make me look like the ultimate pageant girl, right?
So, as you know, I didn’t stay coupled with Tyler. I went home single. Here’s why:
At that point, Tyler and I had spent approximately 8 days together total. I didn’t think that was enough time to say “yes, I want this person to be my boyfriend.” We had the least amount of time together of all the couples (with the exception of Jeff and Alex who had one day less than us) to truly test our chemistry and compatibility. It seemed so unfair and unreasonable to be forced into making that decision after only a week of knowing each other. It made sense for Lindsey and Alex, Brandon and TT, Ben and Lisa- they all had a legit amount of time together- nearly a full month nonstop! Me and Alex didn’t have that much time with Tyler and Jeffery, so to leave calling them our boyfriends would’ve been a liiiiiittle much.
I also felt like Tyler still had a lot left on his “single guy to-do list”, and getting married and settling down anytime soon wasn’t something he wanted to-do…at least not in the very near future, as I do. In fact, during our time in Anguila, he often told me about how he was so excited for some of his upcoming travels that he had lined up- and it sounded to me that he was moreso ready to party -single. And, if you follow him on social media at all, you’ll see that’s exactly what he has been up to. Absolutely nothing wrong with that either. And then there was the whole geographical distance between us. I live in LA and Tyler lives in Miami, and we discovered that neither of us had intentions of moving across the country. So ultimately, these are the big things that helped me make my decision. But it wasn’t easy. I had truly enjoyed my time there because of Tyler’s unique energy and hilarious personality. I think he’s a really great guy.
What you didn’t see was how I had the chance to explain all of this to Tyler. I hate that it looks like I just simply stood him up without saying goodbye when in fact, I insisted that I get to talk to him and explain why I decided it was best to go our separate ways. He was still upset about it, rightfully so, considering our few days of hanging out was pretty awesome and we got along super well. But as I said, I didn’t think there was longevity there, and I don’t want to get into a relationship that doesn’t have potential to lead into marriage.
I’m ready to settle down. I take relationships very seriously. I told everyone that I hope my next boyfriend is my last boyfriend. (As in, I want a husband!) I also don’t introduce a guy to my family unless he IS my boyfriend and potential husband.
Speaking of family… when my mom showed up in Anguila, I was shocked. It was awkward because, like I said, Tyler and I had only been dating for a week! And now he was about to meet my mom?! So. Not. Normal.
Regardless of what was displayed, Tyler and I have remained cool since the show and text each other pretty often – even right now while he is away traveling. I’m happy to say I gained a few great friends from this experience, Tyler being one of them. Here’s how Tyler is quoted about the whole situation:
“Hey everyone! Alicia and I are still friends today, and we keep in touch with each other across the world. The show was twisted in ways you’ll never see, but know that we grew truly fond of each other and it was real off the cameras too. We’re not a perfect match, but what is that anyway? I want nothing but the absolute best for her and pray we both keep growing and find our someone!” – Tyler
Such a good guy! And no, I didn’t mind being called “winner winner chicken dinner.”
I am so happy for the three couples who went home as a couple: Brandon and TT, Ben and Lisa, and Alex and Lindsey. Whether or not they are still together today is up to them to disclose or not.
I am happy to shut this door and remember it as a chapter in my life that has forever impacted me. In some ways good, and in some ways bad. But I accept it all. Would I ever do reality TV again? Not a chance. Do I regret doing it? In the end I obviously chose to do it and hate having regrets so I’ll just say this:
The world is filled with a lot of hate. I always knew that, but this experience really opened my eyes to the great lengths people will go to destroy you… and for no other reason other than boredom, jealousy, inner rage or their own personal shortcomings in life. There are actually people out there in the world who will create fake Instagram account(s) (yes, as in more than one) and have conversations with themselves (I repeat, with themselves…) about people they hate and why they hate them, and all in an effort to make you think multiple people agree with their hateful opinions. You can’t make this stuff up. All you can do is feel really sorry for them and forgive them, which I’m doing now. The devil comes to steal, kill and destroy, right?? There are a lot of people out there that the devil is using to TRY to do those very things. Aggressively. Some of those very people are reading these words, right now. Oh hi! I see you. Condolences.
(I just had to address the troll population for one quick second.) Because lemonade.
But for the rest of you amazing and beautiful people out there who came on this journey with us, thank you sooooo very much! Not only do I see you, but I love you. The outpour of love and support has been overwhelming and appreciated beyond what words can ever express. I am forever indebted to the kindness I’ve seen, felt, heard and read and that’s what I’m choosing to focus on.
Back to the real world I go! Bidi bidi bom bom!
Thank you all… for everything. 🙂
All my love,